Children

I’ve been trying to do some thinking about “serious adult stuff” lately. In the past 2 weeks and even prior to this, the bfriend has brought up having kids together. Now in the past when he’s mentioned this I’ve just let his thoughts slip by without giving a response. But he asked me if we could have kids soon?!?!?! I bolted out the door and haven't been back yet. No just joking, but really I didn’t reply but the fact that he’s been mentioning this more and more often means he’s seriously wanting this to happen.

I’m in a bind though, I really don’t know if I’m ready to have children yet, can someone please tell me!!! I just feel I may be too young to have kids , I’ve just started dancing and I’m loving that, I’m paying off my debts slowly but surely and I really do enjoy my job. I can do waht i want when i want and not have to consider a cute little human.

Children are a lifetime commitment and as cute and adorable as they are, they are a lot of work and from what I’ve heard a lot of money! I know it sounds like I’m considering buying a pet of some sort and there’s not much emotion involved but that’s the way I have to do things.

Sure I WANT children, going over to Sydney and seeing our baby niece founded that for me but am I really and truly ready for children – will I ever be ready for children. I want to be able to give my kids everything they need and deserve in their life and I’m not 100% sure if I can do that at this point in my life.

Then it comes to our relationship – my idea has always been to be married before I have children, but the bfriend has already been married and divorced once and want’s to have kids before he gets married again.

So I just really don’t know what I want - I guess my answer may be in here - if I don’t think I’m ready I’m not?