What a Year...
Firstly last Christmas holidays: was when it all started. The bf and i had a huge argument over nothing and it ended with him pushing me and throwing my things everytwhere , then i punched him fair and square in the jaw - he kicked me out the house and wouldn't let me back in so i ended up in my car at 3am with the dog and he made me take that too - this was really the time i started thinking about what i wanted and needed in my life.
It took me until just before Easter to decided that the best thing was to take a break from us within the first week, or maybe even before that i already knew i wasn't going back, but i wanted to be 100% sure. So in the end i left him and moved in with my Grandma.
Early in June this year my Grandpa passed away - we were all very close so it was hard for my family - we knew it was coming but that didn't make it easier, especially on my Grandma - they were married for 60 years.
2 Days after my Grandpa passed away i went mourning at the pub with a girlfriend and indulged in a couple of beers hmm ok maybe more like over a dozen beers. While there i met someone we'll call him A. and long story short he ended up contacting me a week or so later to go out together. the first time i cancelled on him becuase quite frankly i wasn't interested in a realtionship and the trouble that goes along with getting to know someone, i told him we'd take a riancheck. The second time we arranged to meet up i ended up having to work until midnight so couldn't go. The third and probably final time he asked me out he came and picked me up and we ended up at an Indian place down on Brighton Road.
We had a nice night together, he was easy to talk to and fun to be around, but i still wasn't interested in anything more. I didn't know if i really wanted to see him again. He dropped me home that night and i let him kiss me on the cheek. I sent him and email the next day thanking him for a good night and sending him a link to a website i'd promised. The day after that i had a gift delivered to my work from him - it was the sweetest thing. And the friendship grew from there.
So six months down the track and we are pretty much inseperable. I am the happiest i can ever remember being. He treats me like a princess, is patient,kind and understanding. He's so much more than words can ever say.
I suppose the most difficult thing about the relationship is that he has an 18 month old son. Oh i love him, he's adorable, but it's not the easiest thing going into a new relationship where the other person has to talk to his Ex all the time. And it's not easy being an instant mum either. Sometimes i wonder what other people expect of me but i suppose as long as the 3 of us are happy that's all that matters. I will say there are a couple of things that need to be sorted out - but that will come with time. Bubba has accepted me as a new friend and is almost always happy to see me and give me a kiss and hug, which is beautiful. I am learning alot, but i am learning alot along with A, this is his first child so we are learning together.
Ultimatley it's a fantasic end to a shitty year - i am happy!
I'm sure i have more to say but have to get back to work.
Everyone have an awesome and safe Christmas and New Year!!